Why?

Why is it that I can not find it in me to buy myself anything new? Yes, I bought a new car, but it was needed and not really just for me--that is our family's transportation. And yes, I bought some new rugs for the kitchen, but again, not really for me. The list goes on. But very rarely do I actually go out and buy myself something.

Today I had to take my car to Bettendorf for service. Yes, we received 3 years free service when we bought our car. However, my day spent in the Quad Cities is NEVER free. So, I'm not really sure how much the free service deal is really paying off.

Anyway, back to the issue at hand. I can't buy myself anything. My kids have drawers and drawers and closets FULL of clothes. Nice clothes. And what did I do today--went shopping and bought them a ton of clothes. I wear socks with holes and underwear that have seen better days, but just keep wearing them anyway. I wear the same crap to work week after week, yet my kids could go for weeks without having to wear the same outfit twice. Last week Colby had a friend overnight and I attempted to convince her that having your big toes sticking out of the end of your socks was the latest fashion craze. They laughed, but didn't buy in :)

So, today I saw a purse I wanted, but refused to pay $40 for it. Saw several pair of shoes that I would love to have. Bought none. Completely avoided the clothing racks so I wouldn't be disgusted because I wanted something, but wouldn't buy it. Yet, my children thought it was Christmas when I got home as they rummaged through all the packages.

And honestly, I would rather come home and see their faces light up because they got a new shirt or a new jacket than feel guilty because I bought something for me. And really, holey socks aren't that bad. You just have to get used to them....:)